I'm Back!

hey, it's been a while since I've updated anything. I used to think 'What the use of blogging anyway?' I've been thinking that ever since I posted that school work on my blog. Now, in High School I came to finally realize why people have blogs. They need to share their life stories to the world. They need to release their stress and just type what ever they one without being judge. They need someone that knows how they felt. And now, I need to share what I feel right now. I can't just write them on my diary (which I don't bother to have) or write them in Ms. Word. Yes. It releases me a little from my stress, but I need to share it online, somewhere. I can't post it on my fb wall -they'll probably notice, I don't want to make any miss understanding- deviantart is not an option either, tumblr, twitter or even plurk. I need somewhere that doesn't share things openly with others. That doesn't have timelines, or anything like that. That's when I remembered I have a Blogger. 

Now, back to my life.

I feel really stupid for just thinking 'Ah, they'll probably ignore me. again. Or they'll probably came to me if they need something -which they already have other friends that they can freely use.' I feel really hurt by that thought. They do treat me like someone else. Like someone new. I've been your friend since Primary for god's sake! I don't actually hate them, I don't feel like I make any mistakes to their lifes. I was a very quite type on Junior High. Well, I wasn't a really quite type when I'm in Primary. I have cool friends back then. I even had Best Friends! But they all left me when we were in Junior High (But, did you know? my best friend from my second grade in primary -that moved to another city- still remembers me! She so suddenly called me! we talk about past times and how life is going. It's soo awesome to finally hear her voice again in so many years..) They all go bossy-like. I can figure out that from that time all in their heads is boys. They like to ignore me who was not 'their kind'. Only some that be friend with me. They were nice. They still like to use me, tho. They all went to 'Oh dit, can you do this? Can you do that? Can you Bring this? and that?' gaaaah. 

Now, when there's a reunion in our old school. No One told me anything -Well, there's one actually. but only one. and she doesn't even certain if we were invited. It become clear when I open my fb page. I commented the post, aaand they did not reply me. Ooohh, so you're forgetting about me that I was one of the students in that school too? I HAVE A GREAT LIFE NOW, thank you very much. My High School friends is much greater than all of you were! They all really nice, I got to hang out, joke around and the old quite me banished away. AND none of them use me like all of you did! Oh, by 'All' I mean that gang they so called group. 

Okay, just forget them. It's their lost anyways. They're the one that used me for their own good. That meant they were the one who needed me right? hm.

I'm really grateful that I have different school and far from them. Ah, There's still one that has the same school as me! Oh, wait. There are two. I'm still grateful tho, At least I have a different class with one of them. Yoohoo for me! Oh, and don't get me started with my Primary School friends that have the same school. Only one or two that has the guts to say hello, long time no see, or anything like that. We even hugged each other! 

Aaaaah, I'm finally release all of this. That feels good. 

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Mood: Screwed up.